Westside, let me share something with you. I was in Buffalo General for six weeks in 1992, big time illness, depressed to the point my MD asked a psychiatrist to see me. He seemed a like a nice guy, didn't mince words as he talked to me about suicide; he said one particular thing that stuck with me: Suicide is the most selfish thing you can do because family, friends, etc. are left to wonder why, what did they do to you to make you abandon them.
Not preaching here, just sharing a life experience with a fellow TBD poster....