OP, I understand where you are coming from. I'm 61 now & went to the old Rock Pile to see the Bills.
In my 30's, 40's, and early part of my 50's - I got too emotionally involved in the Bills when they always looked terrible (except the 90's Bills).
I've learned to let it go, to keep my sanity and stress level down. With the Packer's game Sunday, I actually turned off the game and watch some 1960's western movie.
The movie was very enjoyable.