It's something I struggle with sometimes as to exactly what I believe. I look at incidents that occur today and wonder if those were perceived to be miracles...or on the other end of the spectrum, the wrath of god...such as the different weather phenomenon and what not 2000 years ago. I want for the life of me to have an unwavering belief in god but it's hard. I've lived a great life thus far with great family and friends so it's not out of spite that I am hesitant...it's just the inquisitive human nature in me. Like I said, I want to whole heartedly believe, it's just hard sometimes.