There were 5 mentions of ivermectin here in 2020. I personally said nothing about ivermectin until 2021, when the vaccines were already out.
And no, not ashamed at all. HCQ was a perfectly safe drug and there was nothing else available at the time (unlike during Biden's time, which made him an even bigger failure with Wuhan virus). No, shameful is trying to claim that it was too dangerous to even try.