I know how you feel. My best friend committed suicide almost 10 years ago, July 26th 1996. We were friend since the 3rd grade and were as close as brothers. We grew up together sharing our life’s experiences good and bad from childhood to the teenage years and from adulthood to marriage. I’ll never forget that day when I found out he hung himself in his bathroom. I was confused and in a cloud for months and my thoughts went to a very dark place. I often think about Randy now and choose to think only of the funny, happy, silly times we shared growing up. It is true what they say, they live on in our memories and you can visit them any time you want.