Sage, sorry to hear of your loss. We have had several dogs over the course of my life, and as time goes by, the pain recedes. In time you will find the strength to start again, we did with our current dog, and she is as lovable a mutt as you will find. Gentle with kids, yet protective of the house and our family. Take your time, and when you are ready, allow the new dog to be just that.... a new dog. Once , after replacing a great dog, my wife and I constantly compared the new one to the previous dog. It wasnt fair to the dog or us. Take your time, but be open to the unique quirks that these animals bring.