I also am sorry for the loss of your baby. Dont blame yourself for what you could have done, it's not your fault. I struggled with a decision I had to make for 5 years. See a counselor so you can be at peace. I wrote a short story about my experience, it helped me realize that she is in a better place and that I did the right thing.
The Decision
By: Howard Miller
Hi Dad, glad you could come. I'm really bored here. I see you've brought some pictures, I love reminiscing. Ha ha ha, there's the one of me playing T-ball. I really liked that time of my life. I wish you could have gotten to more of my games, but I know you were very busy.
This is fun, you’ve really brightened my day. It's hard lying here day after day, not being able to speak or move, but when my family comes to see me, it makes it all better.
What's all the commotion? These nurses just won't leave me alone. Hey, Mom and my step mom Cindy is here too. Are we having a party or something?
Crap, they are sticking me with needles again, get away!! I hate it here!
Got any more pictures, Dad? That was fun.
Wow, getting sleepy here. Sure I'm wide awake all night sick, and now that I get company I'm sleepy.
Dad's holding my hand now, it feels nice.
What's that light? Hey, why are you crying? Oh my.
I'm free of that worn out body now. Thank you Dad, You did the right thing.
Look there's Grandma. She's waving at me. I think I'm going to go hang out with her for awhile. Maybe she's got pictures.