Putting a dog down is like your best friend begging you to pull the plug ‘cause he’s terminal and suffering. You just want them around longer, and it hurts like hell.
I’ve had to put 3 down, one was a tiny puppy with distemper, totally blind but still trying to find the newspapers we had spread for her. Another was a giant St. Bernard with mange - it was the only way the vet could relieve her misery. The third was just old, could no longer stand or walk, and had to wear a diaper.
It sucks. My sympathies. If I have any worthwhile advice to offer, get a young puppy to replace your old friend. Do it soon. You’ll never really replace your old friend, but caring for and training a young puppy will help take your mind off the sorrow.
JMO
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