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I feel like today, while I'm still hurting and thinking of her, I'm not so overwhelmed with grief. I'm sad and miss her, I'm also looking at her pic and smiling about how great she was. I'm guessing this is going to come in waves with how I feel. I think I've gotten all the tears out. Friday, Saturday, Sunday and yesterday I cried more than I have in a long long long time.

I've been considering it. I do have benefits. I know it's okay to feel and process this and my hope is that volunteering will help fill my spare time and help me heal.

Saturday night I numbed the pain. Sunday I felt it hard and just laid there trying to watch football. Today at work it's rough. Lots of firsts with not taking her out this morning. Not giving her morning pets, coming home is gonna suck The worst part is FB knows and my feed is all posts about losing an animal. I don't know if it's good I keep seeing and hearing them or not

Work is tough today man. I'm sitting here thinking about what I should eat after work because I need to eat Figured I'd grab pizza. Then I realize I'm not gonna be able to share it with her like I always do and it's hard to hold the tears in Pizza was her favorite

Considering we got Sanders playing DE, some kind of DE reinforcement is needed

His lack of adjustments and questionable game plans and play calls have me wondering about him.

I'm sorry to hear this. I have her ashes coming back Friday. You are absolutely correct. I had this happen with my cat. I know at some point she is gonna let me know she is okay and watching from the other side. Waiting for me, so we can play when I get there The last two days have been really hard. Looking for her, grabbing some food and not seeing her wait patiently for hers, coming home and her not there to say hello, not coming up for cuddles and pets. It's just quiet. I miss her very much I'm going to go to the humane society on Friday after I get her and sign up to volunteer. She would appreciate that and for me, giving some less fortunate pups some attention and time I hope will help me with the pain and emptiness I feel.

She was my best friend. I'm gonna miss her so much. I already do.

She passed over the rainbow bridge peacefully at the vet this evening. The cancer had spread to her kidney and heart and lymph. They said it was lymphoma. I was with her the entire time. She passed peacefully and her little nub tail was still wagon til the end when she heard my voice. Thank you guys for giving me an outlet

I know what they are gonna tell me when I take her. The part that's really killing me is if there is something they can do, I won't be able to afford it. I'm pay check to paycheck and had to take out a predatory loan at 270% interest last month to save her that I'm paying $75 a week on for 71 months on a $1500 loan something is blocking her from pooping, they told me she probably has cancer last month because of the cyst on her belly and after the surgery two new lumps developed on her neck. So I don't know if the cancer spread because the surgery was tough on her and that has caused whatever the blockage is or if this is something else. It started as eating a bit less, then pooping diareah, to not really pooping any more than tiny bits of diarrhea and not eating at all. I got her soft fresh dog food, she ate that for a bit, but then stopped. So I started with regular food, chicken breasts, steak and she would eat that. Things like cheese which she loved she would turn her nose at. Now she is just not moving, not going to the bathroom and she is having a hard time keeping her balance. Her breathing is very light. She is so skinny. Her belly is big but her body is showing her spine and ribs. She was always fit. A pit mix. I've been doing what I can, hoping she would recover but I feel like I've failed her and she deserves better from me. I've failed her. I'm on the floor with her and just petting and holding her. She gave me her pit smile She got worse and worse so quick and today is the day she didnt greet me after work, won't move and when I did her get to get up she could barely stand. I've failed her. The one who was always there and gave unconditional love. I could tell about a week ago her time was coming. The not eating at all unless I fed her chicken and steak and only pooping tiny little diarrhea turds. I feel like I've failed her. I don't want her to go but I think my biggest fear is then telling me they can do some kind of surgery or put her down and I will have to put her down. That's why I haven't taken her yet Thank you. No I do not. If they can do something, but I can't, will just *****. She gave me so much and I can't fix her. I should have taken her two weeks ago

She has always been there through everything. Nothing but joy and love. I'm gonna miss her so much. I don't want her to go. This ***** hurts. I will do what's right by her I wish I could do more. She saved me but I can't save her. I have failed her

Thank you @Mike in Horseheads and @Augie i appreciate you guys sharing. Im a bit of a wreck right now and I don't know just thank you

Yeah I do. We've been there for each other, and I'm not gonna let her be in pain it's just heart breaking and I wish I could wave a wand and make her better

She's 13 and been having issues. She had surgery last month. And since the surgery it's like her body is just breaking down I've been giving her steak and chicken every day to get her eat. She's lost so much weight I see her ribs and spine I don't want her to be in pain anymore but she is my best friend. She has always been there for me. She's not eating, not pooping and now not really moving and having difficulty standing. I keep telling her how happy she makes me and how much I love her as I lay with her. I'm gonna have take her to put her down. I don't want to. I can't stop crying. This hurts so much. I don't want to lose her but I don't want her in pain. 10 years ago she saved my life. I'm not supposed to have her so I can't share this with anyone or reach out to family

Locked on is a daily listen for me on the way to or from work

This sounds like the current political climate in the US

3 out of 4 of us still Billieve

I do think that after nearly a decade things can get "stale" at any place of employment. The message has been said so long that it just becomes a catch phrase and not a rally cry

Yeah that gives us time breakers over pretty much every wild card contender except Hou and Jax Tell your wife that the next time she nags you!

I saw it as well. And I agree it's likely but nothing is guaranteed until we clinch. I think we get in, but with how inconsistent this team has been I can see a world we don't. Which is crazy to me If we do get in, I think we will have as good a shot as anyone and I hope we go in 🔥

I would have agreed with you a few weeks ago If we are being honest, it's not guaranteed so I think it's fair to ask what everyone thinks

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I am begining to think this team has to many "business men" and not enough "sickos"

Optimistic take 2 out of 3 of us still billieve based on early polling.