The guilt and loss of everything he worked for. I understand the feeling of all the walls closing in on you. May he RIP and if his death encouraged just one person to speak out when they aren't okay, that can be something
Saw something about "why" this is coming out now.
One theory is this lets teams ahead of NO know NO may be going QB.
If you are Derek Carrs camp, QBs going before NO helps him keep his spot