I'd like to echo everyone in here. Sometimes talking to people, even about something trivial, can make a huge difference.
And I'd really like to emphasize the direction to seek out a professional about this. I know there's a stigma attached to it but that's a bunch of nonsense. Millions of Americans suffer from depression, and its no different than any other disease. We have therapy for it, we have medications for it, we have counseling for it. And we can beat it. Please please please reach out to a professional and set up an appointment. And be hopeful.
PM me if you need to talk westie. You're one of the good ones, bud.