I almost lost my father to a heart attack not to long ago. He was just 52 when he had it. It made me reevaluate my priorities in life. I have the deepest condolences to you're loss. At this point in my life, I know I'm not ready for that kinda loss.
I am 30, so the Bills were the most exciting team in football when I took interest. My dad is actually a Jets fan, but he taught us loyalty. When I declared my self a Bills fan at 8 or 9 years old, while living in California, my dad made sure that I wasn't fair weather fan.
I have no real ties to Buffalo. None, butI have been a loyal proud fan, as long as I can remember. It has been tough, but at the same time, I think being loyal to a team that has performed so porly, and the life lessons that my dad has (and fortunately still does) tought me have made me a better person.
I know I have rambled on a bit, and I'm mot really sure what my point is, but I think I understand yours.