I used to always feel that way about our CBs. We'd draft one (usually for Ohio State it seemed) and after getting groomed here he would go someplace else.
Becoming a Gold Star dad trained me to accept it immediately, there's more to life than winning a game. But that doesn't stop me from being 100% focused (cheering, yelling, bitching at stupidity and refs) during the games. #GoBills.
I know the feeling. My 24 year old son died while in the Army last year. Biggest Bills fan you could imagine. Not being able to talk Bills football (after all the crap years he lived through) does takes away from it. Bills AFC East champs 1995. He was born in 1996. He died in June 2020. Bills AFC East champs 2020. Crazy.